Hello there, Im um Prince, i guess....

Good day, and thanks for taking the time to read these pages. I will start out by introducing my self and explaining some of my unique attributes.

So my name, well obviously its not prince, we each gave each other the lil nicknames due to the nature of the topic being discussed. But for now prince will do. I have found my self in a rather unique situation. I am for the first time in my life seeing the possibility of a life long dream of mine finally being fulfilled. (or the end of a marriage that should have never happened.) However, after all this time patiently searching, having all but given up. I had even went so far as to isolate myself from society and my fellow man as much as possible. Only to have the very person me and my wife have been looking for, for so long to appear almost by pure chance and be completely taken with the first meeting. This almost makes one believe in fate or some weird god with one really warped sense of humour. And what a short strange tip its been thus far...

Marriage:
    After 21 years of being married I had found that my life was one big compromise after another and I really wanted a change. But i had no real idea on how to make that change. Or if it was even possible. I do know that I had gotten to this point in my life with out having to worry about my marriage to much as we had lots of other concerns. always other concerns, and now we can focus on each other more. its interesting to see how things turn out. Life's journey and all seem to always keep me on my toes. But I have to say after all that I have been through I still love my Wife very deeply and have a hard time seeing myself without her at my side. We have always been there for one another, or at least i have always been there for here I feel. I have had my doubts there over the years. But she has always taken them away is some fashion or another..

But I can still see that option if we cant compromise any more and cant see from one another’s POV. I have to start thinking of the possibility. I have come to the profound realization that I will never get time back in this life and have thus found that i value it more and more as it slips through our fingers...

Jealousy:
    This is the mind-killer In my honest opinion. and is what almost always has to be the thing that kills what we are trying to attempt.. I can not understand how a woman's mind works, especially that of a woman with an illogical mind. Since my life kind of revolves around science and logic this should make sense. So keep in mind that anything you do with one you must now do with the other. and what’s more if you happen to do something different or something that the other can do you get instant jealousy.. and that demon is not only hard to fight but also likes to add an element that is almost the equivalent of playing with a live hand grenade. I believe that Snow-dove is starting to understand this and is exercising that demon. I believe that the only thing we can do is be here to reassure her that we are here for her and we are not looking to replace her in anyway. But to add to her and to show her that we can live better as a group working together towards a common goal as opposed to individually.

Equal Time:
     This is another attachment to jealousy I  think, or rather an extension of it when it can no longer be accessed through normal means.. I have made several suggestions to solve this problem, but it seems to come back and rear it's ugly head more often than id like I have one person that handles it in a way that is most admirable and the other that is still learning. Making progress albeit a bit slower than Id like to admit. I believe once the issues of time spent individually are worked out then the inherent jealousy in most women would disappear. But I am still waiting to see if that part of this will manifest.

How it should be done (or how I pictured it):

I pictured finding that other special someone for our lives together, and had all but given up after trying unsuccessfully for over a decade. I had all but given up especially with the last episode in my life i had pretty much given up on most of life and wanted nothing more than to just tell the world to piss off and find a place that i could at least be self-sufficient to the point that i would not need to rely on any one or thing. I had gone to the point of staying in my house basement and helping others and working as i could from my computer. And just when i give up all hope here come one last person to stir the pot to the point of a complete reset of life and thought.... Gotta say never seen that one coming... But sure glad for the support and help and am glad to be able to give it back... This is about how I pictured it all working out, Snowdove finds that she can be as thankful for the love and support as I am and sees the need and want that is there and embraces it fully. Takes all the emotional baggage that comes with it and uses it to make things better as opposed to a tool to drive us apart...

what would u do?


P.S. This post is over a week in the making and i have been told that i wright with the grace of a barbarian with an axe so please forgive my honesty and bluntness...  If anyone ever had this whole story i cant help but think it would make an awesome book... OH and welcome to the true land of confusion! Buckle up its gonna be a fun ride!